17 July 2008;
Hatred.
Hatred had seemed to find me.
I dreamt that I hated my relay mates...
Random dreams "attacked" me..
But, should I believe it?
Since its just a dream...
Or do I consider this as nightmare...
Yes, I did think through...
What I did, why I did...
Of course, the negative sides...
I want to stop, but the words used just comes out involuntarily...
I have hurt people's feelings...
They are hurt.. As if "a scar" was left behind in the heart...
Maybe not only "a scar", but a lot of them...
I see people went emotional.. They did not want to tell...
Just putting on synthetic smiles, covering their hurt...
Please express it out... please.. express it out...
----You also left "a scar" in my heart...----
Do you even read this?
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